-Monday, November 3, 2008-10:14 PM Y
My Hand Is Bleeding ):
i don't know what's wrong with me.
now i know that it is so painful to punch the metal pole alot of times.
my hand is bleeding now. SHIT.
i hit my hand lotsa times cause i am so fed up with life.
i think i could give up.
but i was totally wrong. There's things i shouldn't keep it anymore.
i thought i could but now i am so stressed with all this.
i should think about my feelings first now.
i've learnt alot today. i've learnt to accept fact and faith. i can't do whatever i want to.
i am still under my parents. I have not pay all their kindness towards me.
i should not be RUDE to the one who gave birth me.
i SHOULD APPRECIATE the lil things they have done to help me survive till now.
without them , i'm no one in this world.
i think i should grow up and have more patience. i am too much.
i am not a useless kid. its all up to me to decide.
to be good or just be bad.
i cant blame my friends for all my wrong doings.
i should mirror myself and reflect back.
i should be thankful for whatever things that have been given to me.
i should make my mum proud and not make her dissapointed in whatever im doin
MUM ;
i am sorry for hurting your feelings all this while.
for being rude towards you.
thanks for everything. Eventhough not 100% that you are always right ,
but you have the right to teach me to be good.
only that i didnt notice it.
i am very very sorry.
i will try to control my temper & will not expect something in return.
i must learn how to be more polite & make you happy.
iYyou mum !
SACHEK ;
i think its over now.
i have to go.
i am sorry to make this decision.
i loooooove you guys so much.
i can't bear to leave you guys.
you guys are so meaningful to me.
But i just can't understand why things goes wrong among us.
Am i being unfair ?
Am i being selfish ?
Am i being ego ?
Am i being One FCUK Up person in Sachek ?
think about this ;
- What is Sachek ?
- What does Sachek mean to you ?
- What had you done for Sachek ?
- What makes you in Sachek ?
- Your reflection about Sachek ?
- Why must we continue to do Stupid things ?
think about this.
& you guys will know how i feel.
GOODBYE '
HEARTBROKEN CHILD/FRIEND ;
Putri Junior Sachok/Sachek ;((((
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